Give me a kiss to build a dream on.

I'd really like to meet someone who could lay in front of a fire and cuddle with while listening to jazz. Stare into each others eyes while humming to the music..

**whoops my romance is showing ;)

a kiss to build a dream on....

Why did he do what he did?

I have the most respect Christopher McCandless.
Imagine.
Surrounded by love, wealth, knowledge and dropping everything and just running.
Have you ever get that feeling of getting swallowed by society. 
Gulped down and suffocated and forming you into something you weren't originally made for.
He wanted to be free.
I want to be free.
He burnt his S.S, ID, gave his money to charity and just hitched hiked to Alaska.
He went:


Into the Wild.


Christopher. Your life seemed so perfect. Why did you do it?


Don't give me an explanation. I understand. You don't need a reason. You leave all the feelings and love behind. You knew you'd be unhappy.
Rise Up.
Why do people always need an answer. If I am unhappy let me be happy. Let me wander off and try to find my self. What I do to my "temple" are things I feel my body needs. For me to find my self to be happy and beautiful. Just sit back and support me.




There is always something  pondering in the back of my head...


Into the Wild- Rise Up--Eddie Vedder

Deer Me

Now I am thinking about getting something like this on my bicep

Of course I have to draw it, to follow my tradition.

The antlers will turn into trees

I hope I will get it soon.

<3

Today's Thoughts.

Mood: hopeful

Music: hard sun

  I got bashed on today by two people i care about a lot. I got annoyed and is having a feeling to push my self away from them. It hurts. I love them very much though. Then a guy came. I opened the door to find a rose on the seat. It was for me.... what do i do. I got nervous and smiled stupidly. I was such a silly girl. He said accept it and i did. It is now sitting on my desk, next to the window. Getting all the love and attention for a beauty like that. I didn't thank him that much. But hopefully if you read this, thank you so much. It was the sweetest thing. You make me kookoo :)

Change.

Today, i feel obligated to change my look. not for anyone but i feel like my phase of what ever i am has came to an end. What shall be my niche now?


lets get a move on :D

:3

 This is a kitty. Hello kitty. I used to be your fan. but you're too little for me.




silly kitty...

I really.

You don't know this.
For this, you shall never read.
But I like how you know.
You know, the things that I hide.
I try to hide, but you discover.
You don't know this.
But this, I like.
I like it allot.
For once, no hiding.
Being bare.
In the open.




Nothing to hide.


If only you knew that I liked being helpless and that you knew what I was hiding.

You don't know this.

Humboldt.

Every time I think of that place, I think about the movie, "Into The Wild".

I will not give up on society. Society gave up on me.

              I feel like I have to go.

For my sanity. The nature. The fresh air.

I am so sick of kids these days. I talk allot about this. Kids don't have respect for anyone. There are no morals. No religion. No love.

No Love.


No wonder why some kids feel like they are alone in this world. No unity.
I know I am one not to speak, but I am already a damaged good. Why give up on trying to make this world a better place. People are so worried on the environment. We are living on this world. If we can not even take care of ourselves or others what good does the environment have on us. Before you can love others you have to love yourself. We need to make us, the people love one another. Respect one another. Care for each other. Because before the world will die, our humanity, our race, our species will end up killing each other.

Whoso sheddeth man's blood, by man shall his blood be shed: for in the image of God made he man.- Genesis 9

Its been to long.

Can you believe it. The whole summer was so disappointing (cept italy) and then I started hanging out with someone. Its nice to see that people are good. I do not know what I should talk about right now. But I will give you an update on school.

• AP Government
• Bible Lit.
• AP Psychology
• Teacher Assistant for Mrs. Pust  

I am also going to start my college applications. I am so nervous. But all I have to do keep up with my work, and being with people who are genuine :D

A good what?

I could not love moving on anymore. You realize that you be stuck to one guy that no one knows.....I do miss somethings, but we do what we must cause we can. Why would I say it was a mistake. It was a mistake to drag it along for a long time...agreed.

Let's just be happy. No rushing.

I need to hear pat sing, calms me down :/