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Salt

That salt on my tongue
was like heaven
that foreign taste
mhm

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Awkward Gravity


Puking in the back of a fancy bar

DAW DAW

My expression when i heard what you said

Someone Special

Makes this song rip through my skin and give electricity for my heart to beat faster:


Harvard-Ghost

So What Now?

everything.
i hear- i feel like this was meant to happen
it is what ive always wanted to hear
this is so great
i will just make sure this prospers
this is so worth it
if everything is in tip top shape 
what is wrong with me then
i couldnt want anything more
why do i feel this way
I shouldnt
I cant help it
I believe in buddhism and not christianity
i believe in God and not Buddah
No i wish this peacefulness and this power that you know will ALWAYS be there... was actually there




I watched a short film today about all these galaxies. I am convinced. Where could these things could of have possibly come from. there are BILLIONS and A BILLION MORE galaxies we can and can not see... I think they are the souls, this blasting almost infinite long energy bursts. I feel the weak souls are the red ones. the ones that have been given a second chance but still dies out. The blue ones are the ones who just got there or the ones with strong everlasting souls. So i think where we go now.... we go out into the open blackness of the hole above us

Survey About Me (2)


A Basic About Me (100+ questions)
Created by friendly-fire and taken 965 times on Bzoink
What's your name?: Alicia
Do you still attend school?: Yes
How tall are you?: 5ft 7 in
Do you wish you were taller or shorter?: No
Do you wear glasses/contacts?: No
What color is your hair?: Black/Red
What color are your eyes?: Grey
Your best physical feature:: Neck?
Your best personality trait:: Being accepting and open
Favorites
Color?: Black+White
Non-alcoholic drink?: Apple Juice
Food?: Ceaser Salad
Genre of music?: Ambient Electronic
Band?: HORSE the Band
Singer?: Manson
Movie?: Il Postino
Actor?: Emile Hirsch
Television show?: King of Queens
Current song?: Shapeshift
Concert you've attended?: Jazz Concert-forgot who though
School project you've done?: Research Paper on Electric Chair
Place to be?: Somewhere calm and quiet
Book?: Pillars of the Earth
Person to be with?: Patrick
Flower?: Lily-single Rose
Website?: Mine
Ice cream flavor?: Cookies and Cream
Pizza topping?: Pepperoni
State?: Texas
Country?: London
Culture?: Italian-duh
Religion?: Buddhism  
Politician?: Palin (hah)
U.S. President?: Not this one.
Language?: Swahili  
School subject?: Science, History
Accent?: French
Moment in History?: 1930's early 40's
Thing about Bzoink?: what.
This or That
Eat or drink?: Eat
Watch a movie or T.V.?: Tv
Books or magazines?: Books
Color or black & white films?: B&W
Cell phone or camera?: Camera
Rock or Rap?: Rock
Country or folk rock?: Country
Alternative or Indie?: Alt.
Rap or hip-hop?: hip-hop
Screamo or metal?: Metal
Guitar or bass?: Guitar
Drums or Piano?: Piano
Water or soda?: Water
Pizza or hamburgers?: Pizza
Love or money?: Love-all the way
God or the Buddha?: God
War or creation?: In between
Meat or vegetables?: Meat
Life or death?:  . . .
Music
What's your favorite genre of music? Why?: Jazz-b.c its soothing and you can always be in that mood
If you could play any instrument, which would you chose? Why?: The Mic. Cause I can not multitask
Would say music is an important part of your life?: Extremely Important
Have you ever seen your favorite band/singer in concert?: Unfortunately my favorites change faster than a tour ends
If so, did you get to meet them after the show?: damn
Have you ever been to a concert? How many?: Yes-10 at most
Do you play any intruments?: no
Last song you listened to:: My Way- Frank Sinatra
Does this song have any meaning to you?: No, I am sorry
Movies
Last movie you watched:: Something about Deep Cave Diving
Did you think this movie was good?: VERY
Did it make you laugh at all?: Not Really
Favorite quote from a movie:: n/a
Does this quote have any meaning to you?: n/a
If you had to be in a movie, what would the movie be about?: The perfect family
What's your favorite movie? Why?: Il Postino--Its just so classic to me
Favorite movie character?: n/a
Books/magazines
What's your favorite book? Why?: The Pillars of the Earth-Breath taking descriptions and details
What's your favorite magazine? Why?: WIRED----Why else?
Do you enjoy reading?: Enjoy is an understatement
Favorite quote from a book:: "Hullo"-SH
Does this quote have any meaning to you?: I think its cute?
Are you subscribed to any magazines? Which?: No.
Favorite book character?: Sherlock
Favorite book genre?: Historical Fiction-Medical Mysteries  
What kinds of magazines do you like to read?: Science ones
Friends/Family
Who is your best friend?: Lauryn Winters
Do you trust this person a 100%?: 100%
Do you have a lot of friends? Do you think that matters?: Yea- nope
Do you still live with your parents?: Yes
Do you have any siblings? What are their names?: No
Were you adopted?: No
Are you a twin?: No
Do your parents/guardians  like all of your friends?: No
Do your friends like your parents?: Yeah
Love
What is your current relationship status?: Taken
Are you happy about that? Why or why not?: Ecstatic- it just fits perfectly
Do you need a significant other to be happy?: Nope, But I enjoy the company
Have you ever been in love?: Yes
Do you believe in love at first sight? Why or why not?: No-maybe subconsciously  
Have you ever been kissed?: Yes
Do you want to get married?: Yes
Do you like to keep your personal life private or spread it all around?: Spread
Have you ever had a broken heart? Is it healed now?: It healed with a lot of neosporin
Food/drinks
What is your favorite food?: Ceaser Salad & Garlic Bread
Favorite Italian dish:: EVERYTHING
Favorite Mexican dish:: Rice/Quesidilla  
Do you like Chinese food?: no
What's your favorite kind of soda?: Coke
Hot or ice tea?: None
What is one thing you refuse to drink?: Grapefruit Juice
You refuse to eat?: Fish/bird/veggies that are long sticks-cept carrots
Best thing you've ever eaten:: MHM Everything
Random
What are some of your interests?: Art, Body Mods, Book
The person you have the most in common with:: Lauryn/Pat
What do you like to do when your bored?: Blog about how bored I am
Are you a fast typer?: If I look at the key board
What is the weather like today? Are you enjoying it?: Sunny-yes
Are you excited for summer or would you rather be in school?: Both
Do you have a job? What is it?: No
What are your plans for the future?: Have a good prosperous one
Do you believe Barack Obama will change things?: lol no
What type of mood are you in today?: Happy
Do you write on an online blog? Does it get a lot of hits?: Yes!!!! 1200 hits from August-so not really
Would you consider yourself an interesting person?: Very
What do you plan on doing after this survey?: Get Ready
Do you like the movie "Finding Nemo"?: LOVE IT OMFG AND SHARK TALES
Do you make jewelry?: no?
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About Me Survey (1)

About Me!
NameAlicia
Age17
Date Of Birth9/2
Height
Shoe Size
5'7"
8 1/2
HometownLondon,GB
Current LocationLos Angeles, CA
Zodiac SignVirgo
Right/Left HandedRight
TattoosTwo pro. Few jail house style
Piercingslip, clavicles (derm), tragus
Do You Singno. no one has heard me sing and they wont
Do You Play Am Instrumentnope
Favourite Colourblack and white (do not get technical on me)
Favourite Sports TeamShrks
Favourite Kind Of MusicJazz, Metal, Techno ect
Favorite Songright now, is Shapeshift
Favourite SeasonWinter
Favourite Subject When You Were At SchoolHistory, Science
Last Film You SeeWristcutters or Deep Cave Diving
Last Book You ReadSherlock Holmes Memoir
Last Thing You Said"yuh"
Last Thing You AteMozzarella sticks
Last Person To Call YouMom
Last Person To Text YouPat
Last Person You TextedPat
What Are You Listening To At The MomentFan

4dayweekend

Has came to an end. A super fabulous one I must admit. The sleeping, the "looking", the take off...the just barely landing, the movies the gold fish...


 mhm It went pretty well. I think I force my self to have some sadness in my life though. Everything is going so well, i think if you force your self to cry and think about older stuff (maybe your doggy getting shot or loosing a teddy bear..something!) it becomes like a release. A natural one. I realize if i do not cry for a while... that streak will go on and then I won't seem caring. So a little practice is needed for everyone. 


I heard something today that was a bit unsettling though. I do not want to change who you are. You won't change who I am, but you in my life is such an amazing presence what ever I am thinking about--which very few know-- is unacceptable with this constant love. I will figure this out on my own, please do not give up though.


Otherwise, a great weekend.




:]

Lower than Dirt

Peter-
When you are not here I loosen up on responsibilities but when you are gone... I freaking take care of shit. I clean and I watch the dogs, I care for him when he was sick and you blow up at me. I freaking cleaned... I DID. I never clean. I am so sick of hearing your bullshit dad, you don't know half the things I do when you are gone. Not responsible my ass. Stop making me feel so freaking low and not deserve anything. I fucking feel warn out, I do all of my work except a few assignments and nothing shows how hard I try. So go somewhere else to make someone as depressed as you are. I love you, but this bullshit of feeling bad for everything i do and don't do is not my place to be in..

It is crazy

How nights like these can make you feel
On top of the world?
  no
On top of the universe?
  not even close
Its pretty great. Let these stars, these constellations guide your heart into words and notes. tie a string to it so they will never go. hold onto it till it burns through your hand, for when you accomplish it, it will run through your fingers like sand, that gratifying feeling of relief. It will come :D its pretty good and ... i forgot what i was talking about

Just...


   Thanks for making this world bearable

I really hate seeing

That someone can't do something they love. Whether it be making art, reading or even writing a song. You think where did the color go in their life. Their muse. Now I know there is plenty of color in that brain, but its sad, you wish you can make it all happen for them. You throw out ideas and you don't know half the things you are talking about besides your opinion. This is when you wish you were God and with a blink of the eye--BOOM. Your mental block is gone. You can be happy now....


I wish. Its hard and its sad. Its different yet so familiar. From experience and some that you have witnessed today.. it will come back to you, and you will get frustrated, but maybe it needed to "take a walk". It will come back. It always will.

So I Am Drawing Again

its really nothing. you shouldn't bother looking
really fast sketching basically 

ARTISTS check it out

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Davis, Leonard. Obsession: A History.



Valenstein, Elliot. Blaming the Brain: The Truth about Drugs and Mental Health.

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Zimbardo, Philip. The Lucifer Effect.

Parker-Pope, Tara. For Better: The Science of a Good Marriage.

Paul, Annie Murphy. Origins: How the Nine Months Before Birth Shape the Rest of Our Lives


Nuland, Sherwin, B. How We Die.

Greenberg, Michael. Hurry Down Sunshine

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Kolata, Gina. Rethinking Thin: The New Science of Weight Loss- and the Myths and Realities of Dieting.

Kramer, Peter. Listening to Prozac.

Kurson, Robert. Crashing Through.

The family that couldn't sleep

Mad in america

The man who shocked the world

Opening skinners box

The diving bell and the butterfly

Stumbling upon happiness

 Don't drink the water (movie)

The man with the golden arm

Reefer madness(movie and book)

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Buettner, Dan. The Blue Zones: Lessons for Living Longer From the People Who've Lived the Longest

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Davis, Leonard. Obsession: A History.
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Greenberg, Michael. Hurry Down Sunshine.
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Plath, Sylvia. The Bell Jar.
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Provine, Robert. Laughter: A Scientific Investigation.
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Restak, Richard. The Naked Brain.
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