Secret.

I feel like these expectations i set was not the right thing to do..i need to get a hold of my self and just let things flow. i hope this label wont mess anything up. 


world around me seems to move in all directions
forces pull 360 degrees having a tight grasp on me
this time needs to be different
has my mind been polluted after everything
shake these feelings off my love
it needs to be different, i am different
but how... these thoughts
emotions and feelings
keep crawling back and fourth
this comfortable feeling 
the memory of the emotion
colors spark into my mind love.
your voice speak, letting out hues and contrast
let me paint this picture for you.
dark night....fireworks
your different....
fireworks...  i try to pull you closer and you just stand there... 
the silhouette of our millions of cells
this is bad.. this is bad....


please:( let this stop. head first...
way to many times....
this time..this short time.. i feel like my hand pulls back
 standing in such a messed up world..
chest cavity open.... heart barley making it...


only thing left that i can protect please..... stop ..please.